Monday, June 9, 2008

CONFESSION WEEK: What is the worst thing you have ever done?





Dude. I am low on decor posts this week. My job is kicking my ass this week and will continue to kick it this week, FYI, so I am none to excited about scanning/posting pick of chairs and whatnot. So... probably not too many decor posts this week. Sorry.

HOWEVER, a friend and I were kicking around some topics in email and this is what we want to know:

What is the worst thing you have ever done? Or maybe just the most scandalous? Get someone fired? Cheat? Cheat with your best friend's boyfriend? Tell a big lie? Not tell someone the truth when they needed it? (Like, hey don't marry that dude.)

You can post anonymously, as over 100 of you did about THIS nosey question.

119 comments:

Anonymous said...

I adopted a kitten from the pound and he was so aggressive I returned him. This was 15 years ago and I still wince at the memory.

Anonymous said...

most recent bad thing: i was pissed at my co-worker a few weeks ago, and saw her car getting towed from 1st ave on my way back to work from getting a coffee and didn't tell her. i could have said something and she could have then run out to stop them, but i didn't.

i felt bad doing it, and still feel bad. uuuugh!!

Anonymous said...

My boyfriend gave me the password to his laptop several months ago, and I went into his his email account and deleted all the emails from a previous girlfriend, including her contact info. He would absolutely kill me if he found out, although I don't regret doing it.

Anonymous said...

Being young and stupid I decided to have an affair with a devilishly handsome married man.

Anonymous said...

My list is too long to post.

Anonymous said...

I have not taken responsibility for my life. It's time that I stood up for ME. Lying is a bad habit and keeps us from accepting the truth about life. It's a naughty "shove it under the rug" tactic, which only delays truth, pushes others from us, and hurts those we love. Is it proper to open Pandora's Box and tell all? Probably not. It's most important to know the truth, state YOUR truth, and it will protect your relationship with others, because you aren't afraid of what they will think, since it is YOUR truth. Turning over a new leaf...today!

Anonymous said...

I'm not sure that this counts (because it truly was an accident) but when I first started a new job in publishing I somehow issued a purchase order for an extra 10,000 book jackets. The inventory manager asked me about it a few times wondering how there could possibly be so many and I lied to him every time saying it must be a typo in the system...there couldn't possibly be 10,000 extra jackets with no books be be wrapped around!

Anonymous said...

In my mid-20s, I had an abortion. Gosh, there I wrote it...

I was in a relationship that I knew wasn't my future. He loved me, I just was not sure. I'm now happily married (to someone else) with 2 kids, and I've long forgotten about it.

I guess that's my ticket to hell.

Anonymous said...

I don't think an abortion is your ticket to hell. Don't be so hard on yourself.

Anonymous said...

I broke up my boyfriends previous 7year relationship. I also snooped into the emails that went back and forth during the fact and realized that they had plenty of issues and I was merely the catalyst. Now the chick is engaged and getting her dream. It all works out I suppose -- I don't regret any of it, but still feel an tinge of shame.

Anonymous said...

The most recent:
I made out with a girl during her boyfriend's birthday party, leading to short-term breakup and probably a cancelled engagement. Yes, alcohol was involved.

Anonymous said...

In the midst of a breakup with my former husband, when we were occupying separate abodes but most of my belongings were still at our former house (which he owned), I learned that he had invited a years-ago college girlfriend to spend a long weekend. Apparently he'd been corresponding with her for at least a year before we separated. So the day before she was scheduled to arrive, I called in sick at work, rented a U-Haul, drove to the house, and, with the help of a friend, removed everything I owned from its rooms, right down to the box spring of our bed (he had purchased the mattress, but the box spring and headboard and bed frame were mine). I owned the dining room table but the chairs were his. Everything in the guest room was my property (except one table lamp and the box spring), et cetera. I also removed his file of my love letters and destroyed them, as long as the contents of several other files of love letters, et cetera, from other individuals. Needless to say, when he returned home that evening, anticipating a lovely weekend with an old flame, I had effectively denuded the place—but I did clean and tidy up before bolting. I also took all the silver and china too, since I had purchased those. I felt lousy about this for so long, but have since come to terms with it and now think it had some style. Rage, too, but style.

Anonymous said...

An old boyfriend of mine cheated on me with a disgusting girl and shortly after I found out, I got tested and had Chlamydia.....I commenced to freak out, and then cleared it up. One night my friend and I went to eat at a new restaurant, and she (nasty ass) happened to work there. I told out waiter(whom I loosely knew) that she and my ex-bf were sleeping together, and I caught something from her. I later heard that they announced over the intercom in front of the waitstaff that nasty-ass had STD's and for the boys to stay away from her vag at all costs.

Part of me regrets it, and part of me still thinks she deserved every little bit of what she got. She still sleeps with married men and anyone who is attached. I guess that's her thrill.

Anonymous said...

I was about 9 years old. My beautiful young mother was slowly dying of cancer and in and out of the hospital all the time. My father didn't talk to me about my feelings, no one did. I was filled with rage.

I had two small turtles and I put them in very hot water, ostensibly, as a 'science project' to see what would happen to them. They died of course, and I lied to my father about it. I said, "I guess they just got sick."

I beat up on myself about that for years. I realize now I was a tortured little kid who acted out on the only thing she had power over.

I have never told anyone this; you have no idea how cathartic it is. I think I can finally let it go. My God, I have a palpable sense of relief right now!

Decorno, didja ever believe you would help heal someone emotionally? Confession IS good for the soul.

Anonymous said...

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Anonymous said...

I had an internet affair with someone overseas. Short and sweet and exactly what I needed at the time.

Anonymous said...

I got in an awful car accident that was my fault, the car I hit's people fled the scene leaving 2 wrecked cars and I told the police that they had run a redlight and I did nothing wrong! Turns out it was a stolen car and I caught them. -so i guess that works out?

Anonymous said...

Just paint a scarlet A across my chest. It was long ago, my marrriage was dying a slow painful death, I was really emotionally immature, and I had some HOT HOT sex. I regret the long drawn out drama, but not the affair itself. I'd do it again, I'd just leave and have my boy for however long it lasted.

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Anonymous said...

I was pretty promiscuous growing up, losing my virginity at 13 and racking up about 40 sexual partners over the next 10 years (most of them one night stands) until I settled down and got married to my absolute soul mate at 23. Here's the kicker- my husband is all that I want or need. He's totally changed me and I never have so much as a twinge of interest in anything elicit with anyone else. Maybe all I needed was to feel loved and appreciated. And get this- he was a 24 year old virgin when we started dating. Of course about a week later he wasn't anymore. Gotta love that.

Anonymous said...

I pooed on an enemy's lawn, right outside her bedroom window.

Anonymous said...

I had an affair with a co-worker.

s. said...

Anon 6:17 - Having an abortion is no ticket to hell. Having an unwanted kid in a world where there are already so many? Now THAT would get you on the Express Train to Hades!

s. said...

Anon 8:23PM: I volunteer for a cat rescue group (in fact, I am fostering a feral mama and her 6 tiny kittens in my basement as I type). We adopt out many of the cats we rescue but tell everyone that we will HAPPILY accept returns if it doesn't seem to be working. We would so much rather have a feline returned to us than force an unhappy match; if it's miserable for the human, chances are the cat is going to be miserable, too. And that doesn't solve anything.

I suspect the pound where you returned him feels the same way. Perhaps you could make a financial contribution to them to help their bottom line, and then consider yourself absolved.

Anonymous said...

I steal things.

Anonymous said...

s:

Thanks so much for writing that.

Anon 8:23

Anonymous said...

i check my husband's email. and he doesn't know.

Anonymous said...

anon 7:23...you are my hero!!

Anonymous said...

I've been dating a man who is engaged to be married this year. It's been almost a year now that we've been seeing each other...and I'm totally in love with him. What weighs more on my conscious is that I could never tell his fiancee, but having been cheated on myself, I wish she could know before she gets married. I feel responsible and impotent at the same time.

Anonymous said...

I slept with my neighbor's boyfriend. Though it was over 10 years ago, I can't help but feel like karma is hunting me down which is why I am still single.

Anonymous said...

does wanting to do something really bad count? i recently found a file box full of old love letters, photos, etc...in my boyfriends closet. some of the photos show him having sex with other women. i freaked out when i found them, and now all i can think about is how to get rid of them...i plan to do this, but am not sure how to actually do it without having to actually look at the photos which make me sick to my stomach.

Anonymous said...

I book appointments at a fairly large salon and when people are really rude to me on the phone, I screw up their appointments on purpose...not only to get back at them, but because I hate my manager too and she'll have to deal with them.

cake. said...

one time when i was like...10 i kept going on and on about how much i hated the black crowes and anyone who liked them was a stupidhead and on and on and then once i was done with my rant my best friend looked really said that her dad liked them and i felt TERRIBLE. it was the first time i had ever felt that way {although unfortunately not that last} and thinking about it still makes me feel bad!

Anonymous said...

a few years ago I had to confess to my husband of ten years that I was pregnant..with someone elses child! I now have a beautiful daughter, I would never feel bad about that..

Anonymous said...

In college I accidently flushed my roommate's visiting sister's $600 gold bracelet down the toliet when I peed in the middle of the night with no contacts in. Knocked it off the back of the tank I think. The sister completely blamed my roommate, as she had lent it to her for the evening to wear. It came up for years afterwards, probably still does. I have never fessed up.

Anonymous said...

Anon 11:39--I would totally do that too.

Anonymous said...

Here are a couple of horrible things that I once considered perpetrating, but thought better of (feel free to try yourself):

1) Put a simplex (roofing) nail under each tire of a former boss's 3 cars when he didn't pay a medical bill for an on-the-job injury that involved minor surgery. The lip around the head of the nail would slow down air leakage, leading to a flat tire far from home, preferably on the freeway.

2) Put up a the following fake post in the "Casual Encounters" section of Craigslist, using a special someone's work email and phone as the contact : "attractive herpes+ WF seeks herpes+ male for casual encounters. I like balding hippies and beer bellies!"

Anonymous said...

ok, these should be things you feel genuinely bad about, not gleeful ;-)

Anonymous said...

I'm Episcopalian. We can do whatever we please as long as we promise to feel bad about it later.

Anonymous said...

So, our president must be Episcopalian too.

Anonymous said...

i check my boyfriends email, he has no idea that i know his password. i also deleted all his emails to/from ex-girlfriends. i have zero guilt about this, which is kind of odd.

Anonymous said...

I check my little (many years younger)sister's email... at first it was under the idea that I would rat her out to mom (she was underage and dating an older guy when I started), but now its just to read about her sexcapades because they're more interesting than mine.

I stay with my husband because its easier than leaving. I don't hate him and we still get along fine, I just don't think we're right for each other anymore. I would probably have an affair if the right opportunity arose.

Anonymous said...

I feel that way about my boyfriend (see 4:47 PM Anon).

Anonymous said...

This might not be the worst thing that i've ever done, but my ex cheated on me, and now i'm currently dating someone who is in a long term relationship, they live together, at first I was doing it for fun, but I'm starting to fall for him, I know there's nobody to blame but myself. I want to end it, I keep saying I will, but whenever I see him I fall in love even more. Uuuuugh!!!!

Anonymous said...

Good Lord, I'm a freakin' saint!!

Anonymous said...

Too bad. No one wants to live with a saint.

Anonymous said...

Two months after my divorce from my ex husband of 28 years(he was cheating) I seduced a married man in Europe and have been having an affair for 5 years,CAUTION..it never works,don't set youself up for heartbreak.Why are women unable to handle this and men seem to thrive in this type of relationship?

Anonymous said...

I've dated and slept with 3 married men. If I find out a man is married, I can't help but want him more...

I've also slept with several guys who have long-term girlfriends.

I've cheated on all of my boyfriends except my very first and my current one.

When I moved across the country and my then-boyfriend and I ended our 2 year relationship, he started sleeping with the town bicycle. She gave him a fish. I stayed at his house when I went back for a visit and put a tablespoon of bleach in the fishbowl. I still feel really horrible about killing the fish.

wow, that was fun.

Anonymous said...

I was having sex with my boyfriend, finished up, went to pee, felt something kinds slippery or filmy as I was wiping, and realized, "Holy shit." It was a condom inside of me.

I was cheating on my boyfriend and had just slept with a guy very late the night before which by then was morning and then I came to my boyfriends flat and I slept with him. I vaguely recalled that in the drunken night before we lost the condom after the sex, I just didn't realize we lost it in me.

It's not the worst thing I have done, but it does make me laugh. I miss casual sex. A lot.

Anonymous said...

When I was in high school I sent out an e-mail that made fun of some of the "dorky" kids in my class in the hopes that it would cause the cool kids to like me. The plan backfired horribly, of course, but I deserved that. The so-called dorky kids were the ones who were actually nice to me and I had used them; I saw them crying when they found out how I betrayed them. I never want to make someone else cry, ever again.

Anonymous said...

Anon 8:56--I know what you mean. Casual sex is wildly underrated. (Usually by woman.)

Anonymous said...

I told friends I would watch & feed their two indoor cats while they were on vacation for a week, and I never went to their house once. When they came back, they called and said their house was trashed, but the cats were actually fine. I have lots of pets myself and am a total animal lover - I just plain got involved with my own stuff and forgot. I still feel awful about what they went through with no food that week.

kristinimartini said...

wow, only 2 pple. posted non-anonymously. you've got enough to not post decor for a week! oh, i will probably leave my bad anonymously too...

Anonymous said...

i put hairremoval cream in my exboyfriend's shampoo

Anonymous said...

just this weekend a sort of friend who is supposed to be in alcohol recovery showed up at my adults only party so drunk she couldn't stand up and with her daughter in tow. I took her home and called her husband who was in Amsterdam for work. he flew back the next day and now he's throwing her out and says he's gonna sue for sole custody. I didn't mean for that to happen and I feel just awful.

Anonymous said...

I used to be a stripper (and a damn good one too) at a high end "gentlemens" club. My husband knows, but his family doesn't. They wouldn't be very understanding.

Anonymous said...

I once worked for a corporation that was going through some layoffs. I learned my immediate supervisor and her managers were talking about me behind my back saying they hoped I would get picked, all the time smiling and chummy to my face. I didn't and soon after, I told my supervisors boss how she was always staying home from work and having her managers say she had "just left" if her boss called. This part is true and they didn't think I knew about it. My immediate supervisor was immediately fired. And all the managers panicked because now they were all in trouble as accomplices. When I ran into the worst offender, I told her(and this is the lie) that I had heard all the other managers suspected she was the snitch.. She started freaking out, denying it. I told her I wasn't the one she needed to convince, smiled and walked away.

Anonymous said...

Man, I am worse than anyone here. And I thought everyone was pretty bad. I have had many affairs although I'm married; I've stolen things; I lie on a regular basis, to just about everyone. I will always read someone's diary/email, etc. if I have a chance. Oh dear, now I think I have to reform.

Anonymous said...

When I was about 8 or 9, there was this girl who was our neighbor's niece that I hung around with when she visited them. At one point, she told my brother to call the little boy about my age across the street the "n" word. I participated, and have felt incredibly guilty for it all these years.

Anonymous said...

Anon 9:42 - that's not bad, that's delicious(-ly vindictive)!

I spent 2 nights in jail for public intoxication. It would kill my parents if they knew (although it didn't really matter on my federal clearance).

Anonymous said...

It's very complicated but a guy that had expressed interest in me while I was dating someone else started dating a friend of mine, then I broke up with my boyfriend, then they broke up, then I *swear* this contributed: 9/11 happened and that week I was all weird and needy and totally slept with the guy she'd just broken up with and dated him for awhile. The worst was that I tried to call her to explain and ended up leaving a series of ridiculous and torturous messags on her voicemail!!! It must have been utter hell to listen to! I don't know what I was thinking through any of it. I have forgiven myself for it -- really in retrospect it wasn't that bad and was sort of understandable -- but I know she never did.

Anonymous said...

anon 12:44 here -- it doesn't look that bad written down, but this all happened within a two-week span, and they were pretty freshly over.

Anonymous said...

i cannot even believe i'm going to admit this. first time ever.

when i was 20, i dropped out of college for a year and moved to a very exclusive neighborhood in northern california to be a nanny. our neighbor was merv griffin! anyway. i was broke, and ended up having 3 affairs with various much older very wealthy men, all of whom were very generous with cash, etc...it never occured to me at the time that they must (obviously) have thought of me as a mistress/call girl! i was so naive, i thought they were just being nice to me, and it was hot hot sex that was no strings attached. i would receive various gifts from these men, cartier watch, money (enough to pay cash for a brand new car), spa days, dinners at the french laundry, the list is long. it just didn't occur to me because you think of call girls as trashy, and i was just a nanny! so naive.

Anonymous said...

While playing with matches as a naughty child at summer camp, alone in my cabin, I accidentally set fire to a bunk-mate's nylon sleeping bag. The flames quickly spread despite my efforts to contain them, and rapidly engulfed the cabin. It was a total loss. While I was able to escape from the fire without anyone seeing me, I never confessed to setting it either then or since.

Anonymous said...

i was a phone sex operator for a summer and made tons of cash. i never told my boyfriend.

Anonymous said...

I pawned my Mom's wedding ring and other jewelry when I was 18 and used the money for a security deposit to my very first apartment. She found out later and forgave me, but still. If it matters, she had been divorced from my Dad for 10 years at the time.

Anonymous said...

7:03 am - i was a stripper too. i don't feel bad about it. we met while i was a stripper and he knew. his parents know, but i'd love to see their faces if they found out because we've been married for 5 years. :)

Anonymous said...

i lie.

Anonymous said...

My boyfriend longs for kids. We've been together, on and off, for about a decade. I tell him that I'm not ready for children. In fact, I'm dying to have a baby, but keep hoping that I'll find someone else to have them with.

Anonymous said...

my husband and i were living two and a half hours apart from each other for a while because of work. both of us worked so much, so we would go a couple of days without even talking to one another and then get together when we could on the weekends.
a male colleague and i got very close. then closer. then one night we had sex. it wasn't even worth it. it wasn't very good and after, all i could do was cry.
after that, i couldn't even look at my colleague, much less talk to him. i avoided him all over the place. i had, for a very long time, been trying to transfer to where my husband was, and shortly after, i was able to do just that.
in our new home together we held a party for a bunch of people in my husbands company and the best friend of my former (fling) colleague showed up. he didn't say anything but i was a wreck the entire night, because i knew that he knew.
the guilt began to eat away at me, and one night a week or so later, i began to tell my husband about the whole thing but chickened out, even though half of the truth was sitting out in the open. i started crying hysterically and couldn't finish what i was saying. There was this HUGE silence. Then my husband said, "did he rape you?" and i nodded yes.
i never actually said the words, but nodding was more than enough. my husband was devastated. i told him i didn't want to file charges, so nothing legal happened-- and he and i made a pact to not talk about it with anyone. i made him swear. in fact no one but our therapist has ever known about it. but no one has ever known the truth. until now.

i am terrible for what i did, but admitting it is an incredible feeling. i'm going to go cry for a while now.

Anonymous said...

Are you proud of yourself? You have some really shitty readers. I am so impressed.

Kelly said...

anon 6:42 - you can't tell me you've never done anything bad?

i think calling decorno's readers shitty is pretty bad.

Anonymous said...

Anon 6:42 is a blogger with pretty much no traffic.

Anonymous said...

You have some scandalous readers.

Anonymous said...

I used to steal - a lot. Not a lot as in value, but a lot as in quantity. But the surprising thing is that I'm not your likely stealing candidate. I'm that person who is so kind, so sweet, so giving. But growing up I didn't have anything and I wanted everything. And plus it was so easy to steal. There were hardly any alarms or security devices until I reached high school/college age so I could basically just put something under my shirt and walk out of a store with it. Anyway, I worked in a t-shirt shop and stole clothes, I would walk into Macy's and steal stationery, and at home I would steal money out of purses and wallets. (Heh heh -- my sister thought there was a "hole" in her wallet so she stopped using it.)

Today my stealing is meager in comparison. I steal office supplies from my work, and I steal a lot of them. For whatever reason I just don't think I should have to buy office supplies. Sounds like a weak line after admitting it, but deep down I'd think it was a sham if I actually had to dish out the money for a pack of pens or sticky notes.

Anonymous said...

I agree. BUYING office supplies?! who does that?

LIBERTY POST EDITOR said...

20 years ago I was cooking breakfast outside and I served my husband his fried eggs knowing that a bird had shit in them. It still makes me laugh hysterically today. He survived but our marriage didn't.

Decorno said...

Anon 7:26 - I love you.

Anonymous said...

I love you back, baby.

Anonymous said...

I steal forks (other silverware too, but mostly forks) from pretty much everywhere I eat. It started out as a dare, and now it's a compulsion. I get home from dinner out and there's a fork in my bag, and half the time I don't remember putting it there.

Anonymous said...

I'm married, but I strike up friendships and then flirt outrageously with single guys who are clearly smitten with me. I would never physically cheat - as far as I go is innuendo - but I still feel the need to delete my emails and text messages compulsively so that my husband doesn't find out. It would crush him...and it isn't really fair to these poor single guys either.

Anonymous said...

I once killed anon 6:42. Sorry, it had to be done.

Anonymous said...

Did anyone cry?

Anonymous said...

I have posted 4 of the comments on here.

One more, then that's it: I was seeing a married man for 7 years, off and on. He was/is the best sex I've ever had and I don't regret it one bit. However this could explain my current boyfriends lack of sexual interest. ie: karma is a bitch! damn.

Anonymous said...

If these are truly the worst things that Decornophiles have evern done, then now I feel far better about humanity than before reading.

Anonymous said...

When my husband pisses me off, I clean the toilet with his toothbrush..

Anonymous said...

I stalk old boyfriends on the internet, ruthlessly

Anonymous said...

funny...i stalk my boyfriend's ex girlfriends on the internet ruthlessly...

Anonymous said...

neither of those last two is bad. Just human curiosity.

Anonymous said...

To the 2 admitted strippers, thank you! me too and I loved doing it as well as the big money! None of my current friends, coworkers or childern know. My husband knows and is very ok with it.

Anonymous said...

June 14 7:58 I stalk their wives and girlfriends too when I can find them. Morbid curiosity gets the better of me, what can I say.

Anonymous said...

Quiet Internet stalking that leads to nothing but snarky thoughts of superiority: In NO WAY is that "bad."

Anonymous said...

I dunno. I found out that one recently bought an upper East side apartment for about $8million. That just led to quiet feelings of inferiority.

Anonymous said...

I promised my gf i would never cheat on her and if i did i would tell her
i started to like someone who had a boyfriend too, we had a good time riding horse together and we both started to get turned on and i put my hand in her pants..
it was our secret since she had a bf who would kill me (literally) if he found out and i had a gf whom i made a promise to
a few days later we were riding horse for the second time and we almost had sex on that horse and it was so naughty that it was cool
it was outside in the forest
the next day i needed her to smuggle the sister of my girlfriend in a themepark for free
i felt so weird that night that i couldnt sleep
i had an affair with a girl and this girl would help the sister of my girlfriend
and worst of all i couldnt come along so they were in that themepark all by themselves and they didnt know each other and they could tell each other everything
luckily they didnt tell each other anything and best of all we had sex that day after she smuggled the sister in
i will see my girlfriend next week, im still not sure if i should tell her

i have double feelings about this, it feels bad and good at the same time

Anonymous said...

Wow, I learned a lot about myself after reading everyone's comments. I'm good sometimes and bad others, but I sure do love to lust after good design. Bring on the decor!

Salty said...

Here's a short list of some bad things... the worst I only confess to my husaband and therapist.

-I used to steal money and belongings from the people I babysat for... stamps, jewelry, cds. I've always felt like I should send some sort of apology letter but I can't bring myself to admit that I betrayed the people who welcomed me into their homes and trusted me with their kids. My parents were going through a divorce at the time but that's certainly no excuse.

-I once took a few [stolen] NoDoze pills before school to overcome being so tired from staying up late. My body started to freak out (uncontrollable shaking and stuttering) and I had to go see the nurse. Eventually I was excused and went home. My mom and sisters were completely confused and concerned but I never admitted taking the pills.

-Once (also in high school) when I was home alone I was showering and thought I heard something that made me paranoid. I called my mom at work and said I thought someone might have tried to break in. She freaked out and called the police (we lived in a small town). Before they came over I got nervous that they wouldn't find anything and I would have called them out for nothing. So I opened the window in the den. They dusted for fingerprints on the window and went so far as to install a panic button in the livingroom. I never told anyone I opened the window myself.

Anonymous said...

I had (and probably will continue to have) sex with my neighbor knowing that he has a girlfriend. And she lives with him. One night he told her that he was at the studio when he really was just a few doors down at my house getting ready to give me the best oral sex I have ever had.

I also had some sexual contact with another, younger, guy that knows my sister. He too has a girlfriend.

For some reason I really get a thrill from this, but it does take a toll on me mentally sometimes.

Anonymous said...

I slept with a man other than my husband. Yesterday. It's a secret I will take to the grave. And it'll never happen again.

Anonymous said...

I slept with a man other than my husband. Yesterday. It's a secret I will take to the grave. And it'll never happen again.

Anonymous said...

In the past I was a terrible drug abuser and drinker.

My mother was an alcoholic and my stepfather was physically abusive and an alcoholic, I am grateful to say they got a divorce and my family and life has been put back together.

But it all started when i was finishing high school, and snow balled out of control. My friends and brother had to lie on my behalf when i would take too much and need to go to see a doctor, and even lied to my father saying I had sunstroke even though I had taken enough ketamine and acid to kill a small horse. Lying to everyone around me to cover up my life was hard and horrible.


The pain and scars of this time are with me forever and I regret the choices I made to my life due to the inability to cope with the situation.

I feel better saying it though and every day is better than the last, and my mother and I are very close now.

Anonymous said...

I struggled to think of something for this. I've always considered myself a 'good kid' (granted I'm 22 now) & never really did anything horrid - mostly because I'd punk out.

After long thought it came to me: The worst thing I've ever done is actually what I haven't done. I still convince myself that my bulimia isn't that big of a deal because it isn't as bad as it was in high school & college. Making no big deal of it means it remains THE factor in my life that keeps me so emotionally separate from other people. Awesome.

Rock on Anon #6 - "I have not taken responsibility for my life." I think that's the core issue to most of our problems.

Janet said...

When I was 21, I lost my virginity to a married man. I held out for so long because I wanted to give myself to someone who I felt loved me. I fell in love with him the moment I met him. I never knew he was married. No ring. About 2 months passed and that was when I was told by a co-worker...You know he is married, don't you? I had no idea. She had no idea of our affair. She just knew we were close friends. I approached him and he gave me the typical line, "We are going to divorce. I have never met anyone like you...etc." My mind was so confused. I went 21 years with no love from a man and this man said how he was falling for me and I continued the affair. I am now 27. I ended the affair after the 3rd month. I realized how wrong it was on everyone's part. I had to respect not only his wife, but myself and I ended it. I told him to never call me again. I have been in a 3 year relationship with a man who is honest and treats me right. Do not ever get involved with a married person, under no circumstance. You will only get hurt. Lesson learned. I have been in therapy for this...

Anonymous said...

I'm not sure what the worst thing I've done is because I've done so many bad things, I've:

Punched babies in their heads repeatedly for laughs. Poured dish liquid in one's ear just to see what would happen.

Thrown rocks and bricks at cars.

Committed various acts of arson.

Throw bricks and rocks through residential windows in the middle of the night.

Severely abused some animals, mostly pets (thrown darts into them, throwing them through windows, spraying them with paint, etc.)

Various acts of vandelism (many involving poop)

Supported many "evil" causes (racist org's., etc.).

Ran pedestrians off the road (they're harder to hit then you think - people can really haul a*s when they have to!).

I left various small objects in a retarded baby's play pen to see if he would be dumb enough to swallow them and choke. (I didn't have a plan on what I would do if he started choking I guess I didn't care.)

Repeatedly faked a mental illness to avoid punishment.

I have a lot more but you get the point.

The weird thing is I really don't know why I do these things or why I think they are so damn funny ... they just are.

Anonymous said...

When I was 12 I stole the neighbors cat 'Muffin' on two different occasions. I kept it in my garage for about four hours. I tortured it. I put its tail in a bench vice. Sprayed oil into its eyes. Football punted it across the garage. Then grabbed a machete and held the cat on a tree stump and began to chop away at it. The blade was as dull as it could be. It did not cut into the cat. The cat squirmed and got loose and ran. No blood anywhere.

A month later I stole the cat once more. I pretty much did the same things. After about an hour of torture my best friend came over. He thought I was nuts (I guess I was). He left after a few moments and I continued the various torturing of the cat.

It ended when I was outside in the street with the cat (it was night time). I was picking the cat up over my head and slamming it on the pavement. After about ten slams the cat tried to crawl away. With out thinking I stomped its head several times and ended its life.

I feel bad. I love animals. I am not a mean person. I have heard several times that serial killers are known to be abusive to animals. That makes me feel sick. The whole time I was torturing the cat I only felt excitement. No rage. No pity. Just a small thrill.

I need my ass kicked.

Anonymous said...

I had sex with my ex- boyfriend while I'm in 1 year relationship and then i lied about it badly , and my ex boyfriend lied for me so i won't get caught and get dumped.

I feel terrible, I deserved being dumped but I haven't . I guess thats my chance to improve

Anonymous said...

I fell in love with a man in his late 20's. I was only 14 when we began the relatively short affair. I put allot of people in danger. But believe me, I've pain my dues. Within the span of 9 months he took my v-card, got a women who is not me pregnant, and broke my heart. I don't think he was worth all the tears, fake smiles, and pain. However, I wouldn't take it back for the world. Although, I forfeited my childhood to him, it made me grow up into a better person. And through the efforts and support of my loved ones and my therapist, I've grown into a great woman. I love who I've become and I'm almost thankful to this man.

Anonymous said...

The worst thing I've ever done is painful to admit. This one night I was with a friend at her bf's friend's house. I remember she and her bf passed out. There were a bunch of kids there who I was joking around with. Then the one older kid was started swearing at me and kicking me, I still to this day cannot believe I lost my temper like this, I slapped him.

JUSSSOYOUKNOW said...

Cheated on my girlfriend with about 10 people, including her bestfriend. Losing virginity at the age of 13 to a 22 year old. Showing a 30 year old my boob for a weed brownie (even if it was for my girlriend, she dumped me after because she found out)

KokoroComplex said...

I talk shit about people I don't like (to friends, only, but still...) but I think the worst thing is that I get irritated about bullies and I hate hypocrites >_<. I just randomly thought of this and had to say it to get it off my chest ≥_≤.

Anonymous said...

I have lied, cheated and steal also had an abortion. I have cheated on my current bf and never told him. The rock bottom for me was the abortion. Decided to get help and went into thearpy. But I won't ever fess up to the current bf about the cheating hurt him enough with everything else. Learned my lesson.

Rachel said...

When i was six a guy who lived near my house tried to molest me and told me to suck his cock,so i bit it. i told my sister and she said he molested her to i was so angry that i imagined various ways to kill him, anyway I was really messed up so I decided that I hated all men, and I took out my anger on my big brother. I basicaly did every mean thing to him i could think of(names, hitting, swearing ect) When i was nine and he was 13 I pushed him off of our trampoline and he ended up with a concusion. and then another time i kicked his shin hard untill it bled and brused and I lied to my mom and told her he started it, so he took the blame.even so when i was drowing in a lake he pulled me out..anyway those are probobly the worst thing ive ever done to anybody, ever. and I feel really bad about them now, ive thought of killing myself since i was 7. im 16 now and ive cut myself on my stomach and chest, and evertime im in a car i always hope we get in an accident so i can die, but i belive in hell, so im to scared to commit suicide,I dont hate men anymore, so i hate myself instead because ive grown so used to hating. ironicley my name means gentle lamb, go figure

Rachel said...

I nearly killed my brother when i was 9 i feel bad but ironicly, my name means gentle lamb. go figure

Anonymous said...

so i slept with my sister's boyfriend when they broke up...ever since i felt like a terrible person who doesn't deserve anything good in her life.i have no idea why i did it..they are now back togeather and i'm going to hell.

Anonymous said...

- I shoplifted over $2000 worth of stuff over the course of a year when I was twelve, like lighters, makeup, candy, clothes, books, earbuds/headphones, etc.
- I attempted suicide with an abundance of pills, and ended up in the ER.
- I harbored a runaway for a few days and then lied to the principal of my school about it.
- I encouraged a girl to smoke cigarettes (which I shoplifted) when I was thirteen.
- I stole a kid's iPod and never gave it back. I was huge on stealing back when I was younger.
- I told everyone at my school that one of my "friends" were gay, which wasn't a rumor, but it meant a lot to him, since he was only 13.
- I dated a lot of guys with girlfriends, and then ruined their relationships.
- I hacked into about 10 of my friends' emails and changed all their passwords.
- I lied an awful lot, which got me sent to mental hospital and then diagnosed with conduct disorder.
- Some of my friends were treating me like they were better than me, so I did terrible things to them until they were afraid of me and realized that I wouldn't tolerate them like that.
- I told a suicidal chick who I was stringing along into a friendship 6 months later that she was a whiny, stupid, immature, fat girl who would be better off dead.
- I made people obsessed with me and then showed them that they meant nothing to me.

Guess I'm a psychopath, huh?

Anonymous said...

I gave head to my bf's best friend while he was driving us home.

Anonymous said...

Im sleeping with my supervisor who is married. Its not even just sex its like a full on relationship,we just do not go home together. I feel awful and it doesn't help that this is a job that's in my field but I need a new one I have to get away from him or this will continue. He let me drive his car yesterday and for some reason it starting having issues so he will probably end it with me today. I dont care I want my old life back even it means no more nice things from him.

Anonymous said...

Sounds like something im going thriugh

Anonymous said...

I said the most awful awful things about my mum to my brother. She died shortly afterwards I feel sick everyday. I don't think I'll ever forgive myself, but am trying because I don't think I can live if I don't. I was so angry with her for all sorts of things she probably couldn't help or was even aware of. I never said those things to her but I feel as though I may as well have, I feel like I killed her somehow. Saying and thinking those things alone was bad enough. What makes matters worse is I fell out with brother and fear he will repeat what I said or has already. I hope for forgiveness one day, does anyone know how to forgive themself for serious things, I'd love some pointers.

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